Not up for a lengthy essay today but I did want to tell y’all about something that happened today. Through an interaction on social media, I was forcefully reminded about the stigma surrounding mental health. I was distressed quite a bit about this. It hit harder because it came from a person that I’d never thought would cotton to such an idea. It floored me, frankly. I’m still kinda reeling from it.
What it’s done, however, is to make me more resolved in speaking out about my condition, sharing resources and letting folks know that they are *not* alone! I got your back! You have value and worth and there is support out there. There is help available. It is not a character flaw!
The second thing I wanted to mention was that, well, I did it! I created an Etsy shop! Woohoo! DragonWolfCrafts. Now all I need to do is fill it with stuff for folks to buy.
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Haven’t updated in a long while. So, got out and skimmed the pool. Trying to do this every day but not always succeeding. So that was exercise plus time in the sun (need that vit D). It’s 9000 degrees here and the air quality sucks so I’m actually avoiding spending a lot of time outside at the moment. When monsoon season kicks in, I’ll probably go spend time on the patio post deluge when the air is clear and stuff. Hope it happens soon but the forecast for the short term is just very sunny and very hot.
I’ve also taken to dancing around the living room for exercise. The birds really don’t like my taste in music though.
Been having pretty bad pain levels in my right hand, right hip and lower back. Not sure why but hopefully, more movement will ease things. Or I resort to drugs.
I think I posted somewhere about taking classes to try to keep my brane engaged. I started with a full slate but quickly realized that I was being unrealistic and setting myself up for failure. So, I now only have Art History which I am enjoying quite a lot.
I managed to read yesterday! I devoured an entire book in a few hours. It was great. My review is here: Flowers of Luna by Jennifer Linsky
Plus I’ve watched the Black Panther Teaser Trailer many, many, many times. I’ve also watched a slew of blerd reactions videos. I. Can. NOT. Wait! So excited for this. I really want to make a Dora Milaje costume.
Actually, I’ve gotten the urge to Make. I created a crafty things wishlist on Amazon here.
Well, that’s it. Still not sleeping well. Still anxiously stressed about money. Still overwhelmed by the news of the day. Still overwhelmed by all that needs doing around the house.
But I have an adorable kitten and a wonderful, cuddly cat who purr and frolic.
is over. Done. I spent much of it in a sort of mental health haze of low-level depression and lack of motivation with some lovely dips into deep depression and paralyzing indecision, fear and doubt. Fun times.
So that month is over. What will June bring? Warmer weather certainly. It’s regularly been in the 100s here. I imagine it will start heading towards 110 pretty soon. Plus monsoons! Yay!
I still haven’t heard any decision on the disability claim. Sent back a ton of paperwork though. I know it took me a while to complete so I imagine it is being reviewed closely and carefully.
I was going to take a couple of classes this summer to occupy my mind but my mind is pre-occupied and unfocused and stuff. And things.
The world continues to be a mess. Reading the news fills me with despair, rage, sadness and makes me feel powerless. Though there are bits that are somewhat hopeful. People taking stands and resisting and fighting back. I do what I can. I write to my reps and state my opinions. I sign petitions and pass along fundraising for causes I think are worthy. I actually donated $5 because I felt so fucking impotent. It was all I had to give and I hope it helps. I think groups like SPLC, ACLU, PP and others are fighting for me and I should support them as I am able.
Plus, Sense8 was canceled. It was a show that filled me with hope and wonder. I am sad I won’t get to see the whole story. WoW doesn’t hold my interest anymore. I log on and run around a bit and then sigh and log off. Maybe I’ll go play Neverwinter or SWTOR or GW2 or Tropico. Yeah, Tropico. I can be a benevolent dictator and create my own city.
My booster campaign to raise money for NAMI was a bust. ~sigh~
My campaign to help me with copays and the like and other debt is still running here: A Helping Hand or if you wish to help keep me writing: Tip Jar
I need to go see a dentist but the copays for dental work plus the thought of the work I need done overwhelms me with anxiety whenever I try to look for a dentist and make an appointment. I’m still working on it and will get there. Bleh. Need to get a fasting blood draw. I was supposed to get follow up labs last month but somehow May evaporated. Time sure goes wonky when you are depressed.
Thanks for reading this far. I’m totally rambling now and could ramble forever but I’ll sign off for now.